Ikhlas tanpa balas

Abah: kito kono ikhlas dongan apo kito buek, baik lam idup, baik lam agamo...

Me   : yolah sumo ikhlas, tapi kalu beribadat tuh dapek lah pahalo eh...

Abah: tu deh, lam beribadat, dipikir lak deh pahalo...tuh kiro eh buek tuh nak pahalo yo lah tuh..

Me   : Botolah tuh, buek baik kan dapek pahalo..kito semayang kan dapek pahalo..

Abah: tu deh, pahalo yo laie....memanglah dapek pahalo tapi x do sobab itu doh kito nak buek..kigho  eh x ikhlas lah tuh..buek sobab nak dapek pahalo..tu yang salah...patut eh kito buek sobab maso tulah nak berjumpo mo Allah Taala...kok kan camtuh mano nak datang eh sayang ngan cinto kek Dio.. nih dok kigho pahala..dah banyak ko bolom pahalo kito buek...tuh kok dah banyak x payah bueklah..

Me   : x dolah sampai camtu doh..angah ikhlas lah buek..tapi dh buek tuh dapek lah pahalo...

Abah: boto tapi angah kono blaja buek dongan ikhlas tanpo baleh, sayang tanpo syarat..baghulah sonang yo idup kito..kemano baik lah mengalir kito di bawak eh,,tapi sobab kita cinto kek Allah Taala ngan Rasullullah s.a.w...kito rileks yo....haghung yo sumo tuh..apo baiklah datang x do kito goyang doh..sobab kito tau kito dicintai....paham x?

Me   : uish dalam amek tuh...osah Kujen nih..lamo nak somai tuh bah...

Abah: apolak lamo lak, buek ikhlas x do tengok pahalo tuh doh buek yo..
 
Memandang abah (serius saya terpegun..). He's transform a lot after he got back from Hajj. I'm so happy for him. Perspective that he's given really like a knock on my head. Coming from him - no, its just that I know him before. He's really living his life before and we so lucky to have him as a father. He shows us what parents are all about. He might not be perfect but to us he is.
 
What do you think? Have we really love Him as we thought we do? No, I'm not sure cause as of now - the rewards still come first. Well I guess, its already been taught to us since we were born. We do good, we get rewards. Its like its already in our body system and mind. The moment, we make move to solat - the rewards sign keep popping in our head. Hahahaha, at least for me. Honestly, actually I did. Even, when I plan to do good - its like a live screen I have in front of my eyes for what is coming for me - like a direct tele-cast.
 
Looking at my father's life, he do not have much except for his wife, kids, grand kids and family but happiness is surround him. One time he be in Nilai in my youngest brothers house, or he could drive down to see his parents (yes he still have both of them - and he said that he' still young cause he still have them). He could be driving to my eldest brother's house in Puchong or he could be accompany me in Kota Damansara whenever my husband is outstation. He is mobile together with my mom. If you ask me now, what I want in life or what I want to achieve is exactly to be like him - have peace at heart and life.
 
Peace at heart, by surrender yourself to Allah Taala and really let go as what is us considering living life is actually life hunting us down to astray from what being taught by our prophet (s.a.w). You don't think so? It is so. I've been living and I have a very good example in my own life - perhaps my years are not as much but its enough for me to understand. You may consider that your believe in religious is over the top, you did your prayer five times a day, you perform your umrah, you give out sedekah, with another numbers of good act but you seek recognition, you choose to whom you want to be nice, you talk to people by their colors by their reputation. See, how's life get you there. You judge people by their looks, by their attitude - judge the books by its cover. No, you will not get the peace at heart.
 
Its quite hard isn't it? But, its worth trying...Once we find the true love, its easy for us to perform our prayer plus the plus..dhuha, tahajjud, terawih etc. Our heart will be fulfilled with happiness, and we walk down the road like no one matters as its all for Him. Our face will be full of laughter. There's quote, I believe everyone knows this "give your heart to a man, he will break it. give your heart to Allah, he will plant it with happiness as much as you can imagine". Correct me if I'm wrong. We can actually see one, if we really look to our surround us - people who is been loved by Him. Ustaz Faizal (our ustaz for our Friday tazkirah - yes we are lucky we have this in our office) told us that there is a Bilal with 9 kids (if I'm not mistaken) - his salary is only RM 1,600.00. Can you imagine how he's survive? Me, with only one daughter - keep praying that the salary will be last till my next salary. Allahu Akbar. His love is afar as we can imagine, so seek His love and do not stop for as long as we live.

Ikhlas tanpa balas....lets start now.....

Rokakyah
23.10.2014