Ikhlas tanpa balas

Abah: kito kono ikhlas dongan apo kito buek, baik lam idup, baik lam agamo...

Me   : yolah sumo ikhlas, tapi kalu beribadat tuh dapek lah pahalo eh...

Abah: tu deh, lam beribadat, dipikir lak deh pahalo...tuh kiro eh buek tuh nak pahalo yo lah tuh..

Me   : Botolah tuh, buek baik kan dapek pahalo..kito semayang kan dapek pahalo..

Abah: tu deh, pahalo yo laie....memanglah dapek pahalo tapi x do sobab itu doh kito nak buek..kigho  eh x ikhlas lah tuh..buek sobab nak dapek pahalo..tu yang salah...patut eh kito buek sobab maso tulah nak berjumpo mo Allah Taala...kok kan camtuh mano nak datang eh sayang ngan cinto kek Dio.. nih dok kigho pahala..dah banyak ko bolom pahalo kito buek...tuh kok dah banyak x payah bueklah..

Me   : x dolah sampai camtu doh..angah ikhlas lah buek..tapi dh buek tuh dapek lah pahalo...

Abah: boto tapi angah kono blaja buek dongan ikhlas tanpo baleh, sayang tanpo syarat..baghulah sonang yo idup kito..kemano baik lah mengalir kito di bawak eh,,tapi sobab kita cinto kek Allah Taala ngan Rasullullah s.a.w...kito rileks yo....haghung yo sumo tuh..apo baiklah datang x do kito goyang doh..sobab kito tau kito dicintai....paham x?

Me   : uish dalam amek tuh...osah Kujen nih..lamo nak somai tuh bah...

Abah: apolak lamo lak, buek ikhlas x do tengok pahalo tuh doh buek yo..
 
Memandang abah (serius saya terpegun..). He's transform a lot after he got back from Hajj. I'm so happy for him. Perspective that he's given really like a knock on my head. Coming from him - no, its just that I know him before. He's really living his life before and we so lucky to have him as a father. He shows us what parents are all about. He might not be perfect but to us he is.
 
What do you think? Have we really love Him as we thought we do? No, I'm not sure cause as of now - the rewards still come first. Well I guess, its already been taught to us since we were born. We do good, we get rewards. Its like its already in our body system and mind. The moment, we make move to solat - the rewards sign keep popping in our head. Hahahaha, at least for me. Honestly, actually I did. Even, when I plan to do good - its like a live screen I have in front of my eyes for what is coming for me - like a direct tele-cast.
 
Looking at my father's life, he do not have much except for his wife, kids, grand kids and family but happiness is surround him. One time he be in Nilai in my youngest brothers house, or he could drive down to see his parents (yes he still have both of them - and he said that he' still young cause he still have them). He could be driving to my eldest brother's house in Puchong or he could be accompany me in Kota Damansara whenever my husband is outstation. He is mobile together with my mom. If you ask me now, what I want in life or what I want to achieve is exactly to be like him - have peace at heart and life.
 
Peace at heart, by surrender yourself to Allah Taala and really let go as what is us considering living life is actually life hunting us down to astray from what being taught by our prophet (s.a.w). You don't think so? It is so. I've been living and I have a very good example in my own life - perhaps my years are not as much but its enough for me to understand. You may consider that your believe in religious is over the top, you did your prayer five times a day, you perform your umrah, you give out sedekah, with another numbers of good act but you seek recognition, you choose to whom you want to be nice, you talk to people by their colors by their reputation. See, how's life get you there. You judge people by their looks, by their attitude - judge the books by its cover. No, you will not get the peace at heart.
 
Its quite hard isn't it? But, its worth trying...Once we find the true love, its easy for us to perform our prayer plus the plus..dhuha, tahajjud, terawih etc. Our heart will be fulfilled with happiness, and we walk down the road like no one matters as its all for Him. Our face will be full of laughter. There's quote, I believe everyone knows this "give your heart to a man, he will break it. give your heart to Allah, he will plant it with happiness as much as you can imagine". Correct me if I'm wrong. We can actually see one, if we really look to our surround us - people who is been loved by Him. Ustaz Faizal (our ustaz for our Friday tazkirah - yes we are lucky we have this in our office) told us that there is a Bilal with 9 kids (if I'm not mistaken) - his salary is only RM 1,600.00. Can you imagine how he's survive? Me, with only one daughter - keep praying that the salary will be last till my next salary. Allahu Akbar. His love is afar as we can imagine, so seek His love and do not stop for as long as we live.

Ikhlas tanpa balas....lets start now.....

Rokakyah
23.10.2014

Lama mencari.....

Lama mencari produk yang sesuai dengan kulit wajah saya, hmm 20 tahun jugak lah dari yang murah ker yang mahal. Antara produk yang saya gunakan...

1. Fair & lovely - putih eh silap cerah dalam masa 6 minggu.. huhu apa pun tak jadi...oklah sebab murah saya pakai lah jugak sampai tingkata 3...lepas tuh saya cuba
2. Clean & Clear Simple - murah jugak, lama saya pakai sampai itm sebabnya murah jugak tapi tak jadi apa jugak...kemudian saya mencuba nih
3. Garnier - oklah sebab ada ptptn mampulah..lama saya pakai sampai habis itm tapi masih sama..muka saya masih kering tapi sebab masa tuh, tuh jer mampu pakai jerlah kalu x lagi teruk. pastu bila dah bekerja ada duit sikit saya cuba
4. Loreal - untuk kulit kombinasi, tak der perubahan pon sama jer. lama jugak saya guna. Pastu adalah mata terpandang dermalogica tapi x mampu lagi jadi saya hanya mampu tengok jer lah. Lepas tuh, bila dah tukar tempat kerja - gaji pon dh ok dan dah mampu membeli akhirnya dapatlah guna...
5. Dermalogica - dari pencuci, krim pelembap, krim mata, sunblock, pencuci make up, skrub muka sumer saya beli hampir setahun lebih jugak saya guna siap pergi every month facial lagi tapi kulit saya tetap sama, masalah jerawat, jeragat, kulit kering berminyak, white head, black head semua ada. Saya memikirkan nak kena guna SKII pulak ker, tapi belum mampu lagi....

hmmm tapi saya dah geram nih dok tengok hidung ada bintik-bintik putih eeeeee bencinya...satu hari saya balik rumah mertua di Bukit Beruntung..

Kak Intan: Fiza, muka u elok jer, u pakai apa?
Fiza : I pakai produk Pakistan jer Kak Intan..
Me : Produk apa Fiza? Bersih muka u, I pakai dermalogica satu apa pun tak jadi.
Fiza : Iya zakiya, I pakai clarin pon sama jer dulu...nih I pakai nih. aaa Royal Expert...tahan pon lama...murah pon murah..
Me: ok lah I nak cuba lah..u boleh orderkan?
Fiza: boleh nanti I orderkan.....

Selang seminggu..
Fiza: Zakiya, barang u dah ada nih?
Me: U kat mana?
Fiza: Kat shah alam office..
Me: Ok, I amik skang erk
Fiza colleague: semangat nya dia nak amik
Fiza: Dia first time nak guna...

Malam tuh.... saya pun cuba ternyata white head yang selalu ada kat hidung saya hilang....saya dah jumpa pencuci dan krim muka saya..memang terbaik....kat bawah nih gambar dia....

Pencuci muka Royal Expert

Krim muka Royal Expert

 

 

Sabun badan Royal Expert

 

 

 

Sabun nih pulak, saya guna..badan jadi bersih dia x kering sangat dan kalu badan berjerawat terus hilang - sebab saya punya badan tak teruk jadi Alhamdulillah..kulit memang bersih...

 

 

Jadi, kepada sesiapa yang belum berjumpa dengan produk yang sesuai dengan kulit anda, cubalah mana tau kot-kot sesuai produk nih sesuai dengan awak..

 

 

 

Sekian....

23.10.2014

SOFEA

Hi!!
Today, I would like to introduce you to my niece which are very important to me and I would reach the sky for her.

During my single day, I'm staying with my youngest brother girlfriend. We rent a small apartment in Flora Damansara. When they get married and soon to have a baby, we move out from there and move in to D'rimba Kota Damansara. We start making good of the new apartment to accommodate our new housemate. As I'm single, I would almost follow them everywhere. From going back to my hometown or going back to the in laws even shopping for the baby arrival. Excited as I am, I even make a scrapped book album for her - from scratch.

My youngest brother and my SIL



On 09.02.2012, the baby came into our life in early morning of the day, on which I need to go to Bangkok for a site inspection for one of my project. Eager as I am, I've canceled my taxi booking and ask my friend Erna and  Tasha (www.mamitasha.blogspot.com) to send me to the hospital to see her for the first time. I even enter the labor room to see her as I need to catch my flight. Soon after that I saw all my family did the same and they were all been asked to leave as it is not allow to be in there on the first place. So, I when to Bangkok with a polaroid photo of her as a gift from my brother to me. Her name is Sofea bt. Farid Izham.

After few month

 

She become the reason, I want to be home early and I will not hesitate once to babysit her whenever my brother ask me to do so. Even when I'm already married. At first, I'm clueless on what to feed her as I never babysit a baby before. My brother, being the concern father,he always be - will ring me once a while or perhaps 3 times a day to see how his daughter is doing and let me know what to feed her. She will either actively eating and watching or eating and fall a sleep at the same time. Looking back, I would say taking care of her is a piece of cake. Trust me, she will know how to manipulate me and I always fall in to the trap - happily to fall into. She gets all the best cloth whenever I'm out for outstation especially when I need to travel to Germany. Well I guess, she's lucky cause I'm always travel during her early days and during my stay with her and her parents.

 

during buddy2 trip to Club Med, Cherating

 

During buddy2 holiday after my SIL confinement at Club Med, Cherating.

 

 

There's one time when I need to babysit her together with my SIL sister's Tasha, we feed her with Cerelac and after that a bottle of her mom's milk (she's breastfeed exclusively). After a while, she do not want to sleep and she's very active until her parent come back home.

 

Budak Gomok : Apo ko bagi Sofea makan nih ngah?

 

Me: Tasha bagi makan cerelac lah peh tuh dio minum susu.

 

Budak Gomok : Cerelac? Lam bokeh mano?

 

Me: Tuh yang ateh poti ais tulah, bokeh hijau.

 

My SIL : Itu aku punya protein powder ngah. Bukan cerelac sofea. Brape banyak angah bagi?

 

Me : Ntah Tasha buek. Sha braper ko buat?

 

Tasha : Aku buat dalam 3 sudu besar

 

My SIL : memang lah active, tinggi kot gula dalam tuh.

 

Budak Gomok :korang nih, baghu jago sokojap yo..ntah apo2 ko bg dio mkn...

 



 



During my engagement

 

During my wedding day



She introduce me through a pre-motherhood - I must say. A walk in the park, a swim in a pool, accompany me for a walk around the apartment and I somehow miss that while writing this.

To Sofea, Makngah will always love you and miss you.